{"id":585,"date":"2004-12-09T13:52:10","date_gmt":"2004-12-09T12:52:10","guid":{"rendered":"\/?p=585"},"modified":"2004-12-09T13:52:10","modified_gmt":"2004-12-09T12:52:10","slug":"a-minute-of-honesty","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/julietterobert.com\/blog\/2004\/12\/09\/a-minute-of-honesty\/","title":{"rendered":"a minute of honesty"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>can&rsquo;t stop wondering if this whole year hasn&rsquo;t been just as vain as i am, can&rsquo;t push away the thought of an easy job to allow me to pay my rent, can&rsquo;t find words to explain how i see it to my banker and my father, can&rsquo;t pick up the phone to my banker at 10 am anymore, can&rsquo;t find more doors to knock at, can&rsquo;t buy gifts for the ones i love for christmas, can&rsquo;t wait for a miracle, can&rsquo;t pay a train ticket to nowhere, can&rsquo;t pay anything anyway, can&rsquo;t imagine when it&rsquo;s going to work, can&rsquo;t find consolation in one of my editor&rsquo;s compliments on the phone, can&rsquo;t fend off overwhelming exhaustion, can&rsquo;t stand any music, can&rsquo;t write, can&rsquo;t sleep, can&rsquo;t wake up, can&rsquo;t get up, can&rsquo;t fight the fear, can&rsquo;t stop smoking my lungs off, can&rsquo;t stop working my eyes out,<br \/>\ncan&rsquo;t spend the whole fucking day crying, can i ?<br \/>\n<br \/>\n<em>soundtrack : only k&rsquo;s choice is bearable, choose your favorite one<\/em><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>can&rsquo;t stop wondering if this whole year hasn&rsquo;t been just as vain as i am, can&rsquo;t push away the thought of an easy job to allow me to pay my rent, can&rsquo;t find words to explain how i see it to my banker and my father, can&rsquo;t pick up the phone to my banker at [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-585","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-unfinished-thoughts"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/julietterobert.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/585","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/julietterobert.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/julietterobert.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/julietterobert.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/julietterobert.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=585"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"http:\/\/julietterobert.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/585\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/julietterobert.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=585"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/julietterobert.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=585"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/julietterobert.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=585"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}