it was easy. it was so easy.
the months were slowly passing, the days were long. too long for me, yet, just long enough.
or that what it seems now.

it was an easy thought. so easy.
i have time.
something that simple.
i thought i had time, now i need a bit of time left.
i thought i’d have time, now i wish i had a bit of time left.
only a bit.

i said i will, i said i will be, i spoke in the future, i never imagined that the future would come at my door,
i said later, i said shortly, i spoke too fast, and i said nearly and i said at last,
but i spoke too fast,
i never imagined that the future would look like a wall.

it was easy. it was so easy.
excitement, a rush of adrenalin, i put a name on it, good nervosity.
are you scared ? yes, i am, or no, or rather, maybe.
but it wasn’t the right question, it wasn’t the right answer.
are you scared, yet ?
are you scared, now ?
are you scared enough ?
just enough, yes, just enough.

i said no, i said i’m fine, i spoke innocently, but if i may, i take it back,
i said i know, i said right, i spoke hopefully, and i said of course, and i said i’m certain,
but if i may, i take it all back
i never imagined i would feel surrounded by walls…

[in loop : sophia – swept back]