je me suis rendue compte aujourd’hui que j’ai une dent de sagesse qui commence ? percer.

tain, je savais pas que la sagesse est un genre de truc qui peut vous faire super mal, litt?ralement.

et non, je ne crois toujours pas aux co?ncidences…

huh…well, yeah, no, not now, i don’t know, i’ll write about it some other time, i’ve changed my mind.

« The price of a new car
For you sir we’ll match it.
So drive with the roof down
Pretending there’s no ground there

The TV’s a comfort
When no-one is talking.
Get out of a change
By pretending you’re voiceless,

And you, you never know how to feel love.
The world is going to turn.
Afraid of what you might be
If you let some in.

The price of a new car
For you sir we’ll match it.
So drive with the roof down
Pretending there’s no ground there

The voices in my head
Were always divided.
The clockwork that I’m in
Is of mice and not men.

And you, you never know how to feel love.
The world is going to turn.
Afraid you might be the only way the world is going to learn,
And we never know how to feel
A little happiness. »

buffseeds – a guide to happiness

it’s snowing today. snowflakes twirling above the roofs of the city, falling down in the courtyards before quickly melting in the streets.

can you tell me where i was last year ?

i’m not the kind to promise myself anything on january 1st, because i never keep those kind of drunkard promises.
but this year, i think i’ll quit smoking. not that i really want to quit, but cigarettes are getting expensive as hell.
i’ll put the money i would have spent in a box, which should probably be enough to pay a trip to canada next fall.

can you tell me where i was last year ?

i should also probably send gretting wish cards by email to all my friends and family. i always feel guilty when i get one and i haven’t prepared anything. maybe i’ll have some incredible idea for a personnal card, or maybe i’ll just have an idea.

can you tell me where i was last year ?

a talk with friends yesterday. we’re a few to know that 2004 might be decisive for our futures. we can achieve a lot, we can end up full of dellusions. life is what you make it, everyone says. and here i am, caught in some middle, between resolute optimism, and a pessimism that’s grown inside me all this year, when i’ve looked back at every passing day thinking that tomorrow was another maybe, and eventually coming to the conclusion that there are no maybes, just emptiness. i love what i do, i hate who i am.

january 1st. can you tell me what i’ve done of last year ?

all in all, i don’t have cards to send, but to anyone falling in here, i wish you a happy year 2004.

entre deux verres de champagne et apr?s je ne sais plus combien de temps pass? ? ne pas ?tre tout ? fait d’accord avec L’Excentr?e, nous en sommes venues elle et moi ? la conclusion stup?fiante que je veux juste ?tre meilleure que les autres.

forcemment, apr?s ce constat, j’ai repris un ?ni?me verre de champ’, et j’ai d?cid? d’arr?ter de fumer.

ou?, tutaf?.

demain.

:D