soundtrack : snow patrol – run

it was buried under your faint smile, no other evidence you would have to show, perls of blood sparkled on your lips as your uttered again the words you’d rushed out last.
there would be no call this time — just like there hadn’t been before.
we’d seen each other by mistake in the room where no shadow ever crept — silent faces were hanging on the walls, fixed in an awkward pose ever since we had turned back, would they still be alive had we gone our way through another hall of glass ? we’d had the whole world then, and no place else to go.
now that you were wounded, you couldn’t stop your litany and i watched you wondering where you had gone wrong.
there would be no call this time and there hadn’t been before.
you caught your breath like one who fears drowning and i hoped at this moment that the flow would resume but what was buried under your fake smile was the sign that you would always surrender too soon.
a drizzle of light fell into the room and the phone rang and shrieked like it was in your head — i bid you farewell and you stared at your shoes, you realized then i’m what you can’t tame but it was understood we wouldn’t call it a truce.

soundtrack : radiohead – karma police

you are dying slowly at the edge of your precious salvation and it might take a while until you bring yourself down to your foundations the clamour has ceased suddenly and no bell will ever ring for what you have to leave now, you exhale your secrets to a crowd that never was interested, your regrets and all that you must forget like nothing will ever keep you quiet…
meanwhile you know we’re all trying, covered up with more and more layers to protect our think hard hearts from the same rain you thought you’d escape, and it is going to take a while until we come to find you up there and sit down and count with you what is made of the very last hour, some will say with resent that you never even tried to go further, me i will just call you the last day of the summer…

soundtrack : the bees – hourglass

bite after bite that’s fine just take everything out of me, take every sound take every frame the snapshot has said in a whisper that you can, it’s written down below with the exquisite words that my hand couldn’t draw cause i’m still new to the game and i can’t tend to reach any of your goals. a glimpse for a glimpse and a light for a light i’m swallowing my wants with your sight just take another bite and i’ll swallow my pride, i’m too weak to resist and there’s no need to exist if i’m trashed down to the bitter half of me, we cut out our prints in the hope to make them fit for a world we thought we owned, there’s no such a place you know it, there is no way to gather the bits and i don’t have to give a breath for something that i didn’t create. later i will know i will remember how i cannot belong to anyone or to any vision nothing is mine and that’s just me, so go on pretending that i’m not here.

soundtrack : farewell transmission – songs: ohia